It has been 6 months (1 semester) I carry my duty as HOD in my office. It has been ups and downs. My faculty is progressing in a good direction, I have enough support from my staff, people are mobile, students are involved with faculty improvement and faculty has achieved the best recognition ever from the government. Yes it was good, we all feel good.
From my own experiences, I feel that I’ve learnt so much about planning both in HR and subject registration of my 8 programs under my care. I learn also about how to synchronize things, how to optimize resources, how to deal with partner of collaborations, how to deal with my staff better and how to face bad things appropriately. It is never been easy. It really ups and down. But I move on.
Now, I want to revisit my objective of taking this HOD position. Why ? Because things have changed. And somehow it effects me, emotionally.
I need to know, could I still stand tall by pertaining my first objective after one semester? People are happy but also there are people who are unhappy. I know that I can not make everyboday happy, but this has forced me to revisit my objective.
People are working but there are also people who take advantage or even abuse the system. I really can not retain my naive perception that everybody is sincere and nice, when the fact shows me that not all of them are like that. I have to be strong and strict when I deal with such people but also at the same time, I have to be approachable and friendly. In short word, I have to be fair. My boss call it as : Situational Manager.
Today, I have revisited my objective, SUCCESSFULLY. With a help from my best friend, which I beleive it comes from Allah SWT anyway, I think I found already my new objective. I can not share it here, what was my previous objective, and what is it now. I just want to share, that’s my mind has changed. I am glad I’ve found what I am looking for, as I do beleive, my objective is something that makes me focus in what I do.
After some period, now I feel fresh and energized, since I will know what I am going to do for future onwards. I only hope that Allah SWT will be with me all the time, with His Mercy and His Guidance hopefully Allah will shows me the way, how to get things done. Amin.
Another best friend gave me a wise word.
She said, Deshinta, ” please remember, that Whenever God gives you a tree (responsibility) , He will not forget to provide you water.” Just do good- God will take care the rest.
I feel that I am newly born with those powerfull words.
I have so many trees in my hand now. But I will show the world, that I can handle it. And in the end, I can make it. I will search water in anywhere, with Allah’s guidance, I beleive I will find the fresh water ever.
Insya Allah.
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